so this is christmas

so there is one more day of christmas celebrating and i wish i wasn't, but i'm glad...i have been silently and secretly dreading it this year...my hopes were SO high for our beginning of christmas family traditions with ava, curt and me that it seemed more than likely that it would all suck more than anything...it wasn't great, i'm not going to lie, but it wasn't nearly as bad as it might have been...the problem was that there was company all day so the opportunity to actually do some nuclear-family-christmas-tradition-making sorta just slipped away...maybe next year?  truthfully, bean is still a bit small for any REAL tradition-making that involves the WHOLE family. 
apparently, i'm the kind of person that needs for things that are planned to STAY PLANNED.  i think i mentioned that my mom had planned to have christmas on the 27th and then she changed it to accommodate curt's mom - that made me mad but i kinda got used to it 'specially cuz we were going to then have mom's meal on the 23rd and go again on the 27th for presents...but then my sister didn't want to and i had to get mad all over again...sigh...wow! i obviously DO have a short fuse.  but, i survived all of the christmases to date and there is just my grandma's christmas left.  today wasn't as bad as i feared either...though i have to admit i'm glad i'm at home now.