one small 'blonde' moment

there are days when i feel quite smug, though i AM loathe to admit it.  days when i think about how i could have chosen to use disposables on my baby or how i could have chosen to buy all my baby food, and then, i am brought quickly back down to earth, my proverbial bubble is completely busted because it took me an hour to remember the word that i was using in my head...'smug'.  a day in my life.  welcome to the lemon parade, my friends.  yes, celia, THIS is YOUR life.