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Thursday, February 25

that pool of grace

there are times when i'm actually quite ashamed of myself.  times when i feel like my issues are SO BIG.  these are the times when i forget about things like diseases and dying, earthquakes and hurricanes, hunger and homelessness.  it doesn't mean that my 'issues' aren't still issues but i need to refocus on what is true.  i have a problem...i usually can't see the forest for the trees.  i get so caught up in what is happening with me; with what seems like the end of the world or at least the world as i know it...and then, i am blindsided by new and awful information (someone else's new and awful information) and i feel like such a heel for even caring about my stuff.  and for the moment, my focus turns to someone else's trees...i seem unable to focus on the forest; the big picture usually doesn't exist in this little world i live in. 
then, there are rare times when i CAN step back, when i am able to look at the grand scheme of things and know that, through it all...through all of my issues, all of the diseases and dying, earthquakes and hurricanes, hunger and homelessness, there is a forest, a bigger picture - these are the times when i am able to lay back in that pool of grace and know that the God i believe in IS BIGGER than all of those things, the God i believe in is GOOD, the God i believe in has a plan and is faithful to see it through.  Lord, help me to live more in those times.

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